I guess between all of the talk lately in church and in conversations with the people I’m living life with and a lot of confession of sin and renewal of mind, an old flame has been rekindled. My heart for the broken has been renewed.
In college, I wanted to go to Africa or Guatemala or Mexico or anywhere really that had really hurting and broken people. I wanted to spend a couple of weeks ministering to people who would eventually minister to me because that’s how mission trips work. I wanted to take my story of redemption to them, but come back with a story of my own selfishness and brokenness after seeing the humility and joy of these people who live in poverty.
I still want to do that.
But something happened between the time that I stopped caring quite as much (not that the desire ever fully went away) and the time that I was again mindful of the idea of mission. I think God redefined in me what it meant to make a difference. My realities changed.
A few weeks ago we were learning about mission and what the Missio Dei is and Stuart said something so eye opening-if only to me. He said that being impoverished doesn’t mean that you don’t have food, that you live on the streets, or that you can’t afford diapers for your newborn. While that’s part of it and the most visible form of poverty, it doesn’t make it the most real.
I know lots of wealthy people and so many of them are impoverished because they are lacking something they need. Their marriage is poor in spirit and in love. Their relationships with their children are lacking in respect. Their lives are devoid of any kind of joy or peace, and while maybe you can live a whole life without any of those things, the quality of life is not even on the spectrum of the best possible.
I have family who are warm and fed and watered, but are so empty of Jesus, that life isn’t an option, even as they live.
What if I had the boldness to let Jesus overflow into my work? What would that look like? Is it even possible? Am I in a place with Jesus that He has filled me up so much that there is no other option but for Him to overflow into my job, my family, my relationships with friends and Jamal?
What if instead of looking at Haiti and Africa and Louisiana for reasons to minister, I looked at the poor and the oppressed and the oppressors that live in my radius?
Staying here isn’t for everyone, but I think it’s for me.