In the tenth grade I made a new screenname for AOL (because AOL dial-up was the cool thing back then). Beatree13.
Because Psalm 1: 1-3 says:
Blessed is the man who walks not in the counsel of the wicked, nor stands in the way of sinners, nor sits in the seat of scoffers; but his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night.He is like a tree planted by streams of water that yields its fruit in its season, and its leaf does not wither. In all that he does, he prospers.And so from the first time I really studied that verse, my goal in life, the thing I worked towards, was being a tree. Being something that is always growing. Not a fire that can be put out, but a tree that always grows, always is becoming more beautiful and more functional, and more fruitful.
Recently my life has seemed to be at a standstill. School is on hold for the semester, I’m not moving on to marriage like so many of my friends, I’m not starting my career like most 23-24 year olds do, I’m helping with the youth at church (mostly pretending like I still am a youth), I’m working at a camp, and I’m living at home. Standstill.
And it’s not that I don’t think these things have purpose. I know they do. And I love these things (ok, most of them).
So today, my RSS had a new post from the Bo Parker. And when I saw the title, I got excited. And then I read the last paragraph (which I would include, but i really think you should just read the whole post).
This season of my life seems SO long. It seems so boring and purposeless, and sometimes so lonely, but when I realize that God is growing me and changing me for something, that’s exciting. And when I realize that I’m having to stay in this phase of life for so long because quite possibly, His plan for me is much too large to only train me for a couple of weeks or months, I know that it’s worth it.
So for now, I’ll keep growing fuller. I’ll keep (hopefully) producing fruit. I’ll keep watering myself. I’ll keep being a tree.