Yeses and Nos

The only thing that can make me dislike a person more than them talking negatively about my family is when they say yes a thousand times, and then decide to change their mind at the last minute.

Let your yes be yes and your no be no.

Fill Me Up

It’s time for a confession.  Seriously.  If I talk to you once a year or once an hour, this is what I need from you.

This past week has been- well- not so good.  Awful would be another word to describe it.  It’s had good days and bad days, but bad parts that seem to overshadow the good parts.

Tonight in Agape we talked and while the rest is extremely relevant, I’m not sure that I heard a lot of it because God hit me in the face with this one sentence that Jamal said.  I have no doubt that at this very moment, Jamal was allowing God to speak through him.

“Stop letting the things of this world fill you.  They will never be enough.  Let Christ fill you up.”  Simple as that.

Nothing elaborate.  But gripping, it was.

My week has been terrible for one reason.  I have been counting on- NO. Depending on the things of this world to fill me up. I have been upset because my relationships weren’t going exactly as I had planned, my job wasn’t going exactly as I had planned, my life in general wasn’t going exactly as I had planned.  And tonight, in the midst of a lot of tears, and a lot of heartache, and a lot of people, God used Jamal to tell me that I need to stop.  Right now.

I need for my community, my circle, to remind me of this daily.  For you to show me when I’m failing (so if I go a single day without hearing this, you’re not doing your job).

I’m not here to be satisfied.  I’m here to be full.

Things I’ve Realized

Today:  That the books I start and don’t finish are the ones that have darker recycled looking paper for the pages and small words.  I like big words and white pages (and preferably pictures).

When I was 7:  that it would be amazing if we could just live life without money.  I give you something and you give me something.  I help you, you help me.  (I obviously was broke even then.)

Two days later :  that would never work because people are selfish.

Junior year in college:  all of those thoughts were semi-communist. Oh gosh.

When I was 19:  that if I dance like I know what I’m doing, people will think I’m awesome.

When I was 19 and 1 day:  that even when I dance like I know what I’m doing, people think I’m a freak.

A couple of weeks ago: That sports games being broadcasted don’t actually stop when the commercials come on.

Pass It On

Planning for a girls retreat can be… challenging.

It has nothing to do with the details, or the money, or the ideas, or the fun, or the organization, or any of that stuff.

It’s because I see so many of my own flaws when I’m studying and reading to help teach other girls.

I want to be a good example.  I want to be a woman of integrity and Godly character.  I want the girls to grasp what we are saying because they see it lived out every single time they see me or Bonnie, or Amanda.

But I see me when I’m annoyed at people, or when I take short cuts, or when I don’t agree with what’s being said, and I don’t like that- I don’t want that to be passed on.

Planning for a girls retreat can be… challenging.

mmmhmmm

I normally hate when people post videos on their blog, but really, I might post this one every day for the rest of my blogging life.